i want to throw my phone into the sea
I failed my digital detox two days in. My theory is that I'm too stressed or energy deficient to do any of the usual things reccomended to 'fill your time' while detoxing.
I yearn for slop!1 It takes a sledgehammer to my thoughts. Everything else takes time and energy I do not have. I'm a husk of a person, and even the husk falls apart on the weekend.
I've keeping "done lists", even without a to-do list. Sometimes, it motivates me to continue tasks.
Today was not one of those days. I did ... very few things. I almost said nothing, but that sounds defeatist:
- Tidied bathroom
- Tidied bedroom (half heartedly made bed, put away pants)
- Emptied and re-packed dishwasher
- Washed up sink
- Made several failed attempts to flesh out a story idea
- Thought about getting back to the fanfic/short story I started writing a month ago 2
- Did one (1) quick sketch in my pocket notebook
- prepped to study at the library tomorrow (backpack, clothes)
- half heartedly styled my hair